My boyfriend left for China for two weeks and so we didn’t see eachother at all during then. When I came back, I felt like things were really awkward between us, and then we got in a fight and I left. We didnt see eachtoher for another day, and when we did have dinner together, it was really awkward. I kept telling him that I needed to talk to him, but he always had an excuse, application due, jet lag, tired, and he would set a time to talk to me and when the time came he would say I’m sorry I have to work on my hw. I finally confronted him about it last night and forced him to talk to me, whereby he admitted that he was trying to avoid having the conversation because he didnt know what to say.

We talked for 5 hours last night from 11 to 4am, and we listed all the problems that we had, but we couldnt figure out why. It’s like all of a sudden it was uncomfortable for us to be around eachother. We came up with a list of solutions, but keptvetoing them until the only one left was breaking up. In the end, he decided that the only option was for us to break up. Which upset me because I felt like going in to the conversation, we both really wanted to solve it, but we ended up convincing ourselves more and more of breaking up. He told me that he didn’t know if he liked me anymore.

When he broke up with me and when we both turned to walk towards our respective dorms, I realized I couldn’t let him go. I asked him to sit down and make sure that he was sure. He seemed so emotionless… I don’t know how but I somehow managed to convince him to not break up with me. I don’t know if that was the right thing to do… and its finals week and I cant concentrate….