What exactly is the Trouble with Crystal? Life reflections of a crazy girl.
Preparing for a test requires much more than just studying. A lot of overachievers, myself included, tend to excuse ourselves from self-care when cortisol levels are high and time is in short supply. It’s like I can somehow only manage to prioritize one thing at a time in my mind, and right now the test comes first; all other activities detract from time that could be better spent studying. However, healthy habits such as sleep and diet are important, and especially more so during times of high stress.
In six days, I have to take the (so far) most important exam in my life at 8:00 in the morning. With a total length of over five hours, oft remarked to test endurance more than ability, the MCAT, needless to say, does not spare lightly those who enter even remotely tired. After two weeks of religious studying, I’ve gotten to the point where I miss questions not due to unfamiliarity with the material, but due to sloppiness. Fixing my sleep schedule will probably gain me more points than any amount of studying can now. Considering people tend to be more alert a few hours after waking, I must wake up at 6am to maximize my 8am focus. Easy, right?
I wish.
I am a recurrent insomniac, especially during times of high stress. I feel most comfortable during the hours between 1 and 3 am. My regular bedtime is 4 am, and I wake up after lunch. Two nights ago I couldn’t sleep until 6am, and woke up at 4pm. I’ve slowly whittled down my bedtime and pushed up my alarm; last night I slept from 2 to 8 am, forcing myself to wake up despite feeling completely useless all day. However, I still have a long way to go until I train my body to function in the morning.
I also barely eat. Well, to begin with, I never really had good eating habits. I definitely did not consume a balanced, nutritious diet. I can be health-food conscious, in fact, was so for a few months when I tried vegetarianism, but to do so requires, well, a level of consciousness that does not come naturally. Every morning I drive to Starbucks and order a cup of coffee, which keeps me going until I almost pass out around dinner time, which is when I’ve realized that all I’ve had all day is a coffee. I also snack. A lot. Combine all my eating faults, and the result is that I end up relying on late night snacking as a means of sustenance.
This isn’t the first time I’ve done this. We have all seen those students who are so stressed that they forgo meals to make time for school. I used to skip lunch all the time in high school so that I could finish the homework due in my afternoon classes, and simply buy a bag of chips from the vending machine. But now, I end up studying less than if I had been eating because I just don’t have the energy to continue, almost passing out by the end of the day. I guess I’m not so young anymore, huh.
I also used to exercise regularly. Every day while studying in Oxford I would start off by running to give me energy for the rest of the day. Now I’ve replaced my morning jog with expresso. I don’t have time to run – I rationalize. Instead, I have time to waste four hours lying in bed every night wishing that I could fall asleep. Exercise would have helped me gain energy, eat right, sleep better, and just improve mood in general, all not only conducive but downright necessary for effective studying.
So if I could go back in time and talk to myself before any moment of high stress, I would advice myself to:
The next few seem.. well… obvious, but I’ve forgone them before in extreme stress situations, so I might as well mention them.
I generally hate when people say, “Take care”, especially in emails, because it is tossed around as a polite way-out by those who don’t actually care. But I don’t mind telling myself and others who need to hear it every once in a while.
Take care,
Crystal
3 Responses for "Dear Stressed Out College Student,"
A few tips, from a fellow recurrent insomniac…
* I don’t know if you study in your bedroom, but pyschologically, it can really help to study elsewhere sometimes. Stops you building associations in your mind that bedroom = workplace.
* You’re quite right that excercise is good. Even a little can help you sleep better, even if it’s just a short walk in the evening. Something to get the blood pumping a little. Anything!
* Dairy products contain a few things (notably B vitamins) that can help you relax. A glass of milk before bedtime genuinely can help.
* If you have a bath, try having a nice relaxing soak before you sleep. Some essential oils like lavender can be quite soothing.
* Some herbal supplements with mild sedative effects can help you drift off. Notably valerian root, passionflower and (though I can’t buy it in the UK anymore) kava kava.
As studying goes, choline can assist memory retention, while ginkgo biloba helps increase bloodflow to the brain. Vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid) helps you digest carbs and sugars more fully, giving you extra stamina when you need it, as well as helping with brain function.
I’ve found these things helpful anyway. Hope they’re of some use!
Take care,
Xan
Hi Xan,
Thanks so much for your tips, I haven’t tried any of the herbal ingredients you suggested but I’ll definitely give them a try. I haven’t even heard of some of the ones you mentioned, actually. I used to try taking Vitamin B supplements for energy but didn’t feel any effect – now that you’ve elucidated the mechanism, it’s probably because I didn’t take them with meals. I took some melatonin last night, and I’ve decided I’m never going to do that again, since it made me sleep for 10 hours. And I miss the UK, would love to go back sometime!
Crystal
It’s a problem of equilibria unfortunately… you can keep yourself going at the healthy, happy, high-producing level (the unstable equilibrium) and you’ll be fine, but if you slip up and lose discipline (ilke I tend to, for sleeping, eating right, going outside — the attitude of: humbug! who has time to exercise when there is work to do! who has time to cook something proper when it takes an hour??), then it’s hard to get out of a very low, equilibrium, where life is miserable – and you “have to” stay in that rut in order to get things done. In this latter case, the only way out sometimes is to “reset” – sleep, eat, rest, heal.
(I hope I’m not being patronizing but…) Take care of yourself… being tired is a very human thing. Isn’t it such an amazing feeling when your head hits the pillow, when you’ve been waiting to “pass out” for hours? I guess I’m trying to learn to respect my body, and the value of sleep as well as other forms of rest, for mind and body alike. I just had a really crazy dream a few nights ago, that involved stuff from last quarter, which was more than 2 months ago. Probably means I haven’t given my brain a chance to “process” experiences… but ah… I am lecturing you now… not what you need at all.
All the best on your test.
-jc
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